I wanted to have it done by now, but I don’t think it’s gonna happen. 🙁
I should have had it done last year, but it didn’t happen then, either.
maybe I should just drop the whole damned thing
and abandon all the work I’ve put in
I know I’m only as good as my latest failure.
I’m not going to rest on my thorny laurels
all the accolades I’ve received in the past are to become meaningless
all of the past blunders are to be rubbed in my face ad nauseum,
where a one second failure equals a year of painI am not worth the paper I’m printed on
to use an outdated cliche
nobody wants to see me succeed if it is at the expense of their own success
but me, I’ve always put the needs of others before my own
until I got nothing and it was rubbed in my face
and then I got greedy
and I made myself
a lot of regrets and mistakes
and things that everyone around me tried to micro-manage
and turn me intotheir worthless scapegoat
and I was pissed on,
and beaten
and constantly insulted
and my ego dies inside of me
my id, became dominant for a while
I’m not going to rest on my thorny laurels
all the accolades I’ve received in the past are to become meaningless
all of the past blunders are to be rubbed in my face ad nauseum,
where a one second failure equals a year of painI am not worth the paper I’m printed on
to use an outdated cliche
nobody wants to see me succeed if it is at the expense of their own success
but me, I’ve always put the needs of others before my own
until I got nothing and it was rubbed in my face
and then I got greedy
and I made myself
a lot of regrets and mistakes
and things that everyone around me tried to micro-manage
and turn me intotheir worthless scapegoat
and I was pissed on,
and beaten
and constantly insulted
and my ego dies inside of me
my id, became dominant for a while
and now they want me to start taking pills.
those kids who bullied me when I was young
are mostly all multi-millionaires now,
and I’m left unemployed,
and down and
out.
thanks a lot!